Faith…The Final Frontier

As I sit here with what seems like the weight of the world on my shoulders, I find myself trying desperately to follow my own advice…have faith. Just today, I told my mom that the antidote to fear is faith. I explained to her that the only way to get past that which you fear is to believe…truly believe…that what you fear cannot hurt you. I knew it was true when I told her and I know it’s true now. So, why am I having such a hard time doing what I expected her to? Where is my faith when I need it?

The adage, “easier said than done” comes to mind but that doesn’t quite say it all.

What is it that’s I’m afraid of? Failure? I suppose that’s partly true but since I’ve never really failed, I don’t really know what it’s like. I suppose I don’t want to but that’s not it. Am I afraid of letting people down? Aside from my immediate family, I don’t really even consider what other people think about what I do or don’t do so that can’t be it either. Am I afraid of letting myself down? Definitely not. I don’t see myself through my successes and failures. What then?

I suppose I’m most afraid (if that’s even the right word) of being seen but being misunderstood. That’s it!!! To be seen but misunderstood is what I run from most.

Ironically, I spoke to Dumi today and mentioned how I feel about my journey with Ndugu. I wanted him to tell me it was all a misunderstanding…that I hadn’t failed. Wisely, he said nothing. In hindsight, that was just what I needed to hear.

My name is Adisa. It means, “he who makes his meaning clear” but I haven’t so far. This has always been my highest call and my biggest challenge. Not living my name is why I didn’t “finish” the journey that I started with Ndugu. However, I understand now that my journey is far from over.

I wonder often if my friends misunderstand me…if they think of me as just another salesman when they see an IM on their screen from me. I often shy away from what I could do for them (because I get compensated for it) as a result. I don’t want to be seen that way. I don’t want to be misunderstood. How to rectify the two is my challenge.

………..To Be Continued.

About Marcus Tyler

Hello! I am Marcus Tyler, Founder, CEO and Chief Dream Architect of DreamBuilder Enterprises. I empower everyday people just like you create the money and time that they need to fulfill their purpose and live life fully again. I teach, inspire, coach, support, and guide each of my customers to their full potential by helping them reconnect with their dreams in a meaningful way and by putting a system in place to support the realization of that dream. I realized at a young age that my calling is to help people but I had no idea how I would do it. I had no idea how I would get started. However, because of my various life experiences, the tutelage of my mentors and the opportunities with which I have been blessed, I am able to give you the best of what I have to offer and let that be as much a blessing to you and your family as it has been to me and mine. My background is likely much like many of yours. I am a husband to Cheryl and a father to our 5 beautiful children, Tristan, Justice, Veronica, Mason and Mariah. I am a full-time enlisted service member in the United States Army and small business owner. I live, love and support my family the best way I know how and try to make the best of every situation that comes my way. I am a faithful Christian and endeavor to live honorably in the sight of God. I have seen struggle as well as prosperity. I have enjoyed good health and have healed from illness and injury. I know what it feels like to believe and what if feel like to have to borrow the belief of others when mine seemed to run out. Through it all, we have kept moving forward. So, I can appreciate where you are in your life and look forward to the opportunity to help you take the next step on YOUR journey. I will help you gather more skills, more perspective and more wisdom. I will help you dream again and believe that you have the ability to achieve those dreams. With the information and coaching I will provide, you will gather the tools, the confidence, and the support that you need to live any lifestyle that you desire. I look forward to our walk together.
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